On Being 22

It's time for the quarterly update i suppose. This year's 22nd birthday was indeed a different one from last year. Well perhaps its the after 21 syndrome, after a big party last year, this year was a series of small scaled meet-ups with different groups of friends. Guess it's part of the growing old stage where presents no longer become important and note my wishlist this year was non-existent.

Sadly, to date, I have not received any presents(not including 2 red packets). At this point, do wanna thank my family for being there for the past 1 year, esp my mum who bore the labour pains to give bith to me 22 years ago. Next is my baby who planned all the birthday meetings with my different friends though the elements of surprise was gone. Next is probably people whom i met, peeps who called me / SMS / MSned me on this special day. Special mention to Andrew who called from Melbourne ,Janice who sent me a Santa claus post card from Finland, Eugene who messaged me from UK. Glad to hear that you guys are still alive and kicking ,having fun.

It's also during this day that I realise how many close friends I have lost contact with. I am rather sure that this friend do remember this day, i do not know whether he choose not to remember or simply he has forgotten about it. It kinda saddens me that this friendship has come to such a stage. Perhaps,it just takes more effort on both sides, or perhaps, in my opinion, it takes more than 1 hand to clap.

Life in school is hectic, manage to scrap through my exams last sem, and i better pull up my socks this sem but certain things are just not within my control. Read yuwei's entry and I also heard about it. Indeed life is not about getting good grades or even trying to please others. It's time i reflect upont this to cherish the people around me and derive joy from the little things in life. These will be captured in snapshots in my memories and these are the things that will last, i suppose.

P.s: Hope to blog more often and pen down my thoughts else they will just disappear into thin air. Thanks all for bearing with me all these times. Love ya guys!

Holidays in NUS

Dear Weixiong

I regret to inform you that you have not met the deadline of 2nd jan 2006 to meet to apply for SEP in YR2 Sem 2 and hence your application is rejected.

Oh well, this seems so real. I remembered having a talk with Debbie and Jan quite some time ago, they as my seniors (just becos they dun serve NS) tell me to treasure the holidays I have in NUS, do all the things you always wanted to do, travel to exotic countries cos one will prob not have the bones and to say climb mountains or go try out bungee jumping anymore (Until now I haven convinced myself that I have the guts to do it)

And that conversation with them sorta triggered my mind to think of how to utilize my 4 yrs worth of hols in NUS( that is if i made it to honours then). So this is what i came out with (in the midst of exam period...)tentatively.

Dec 05: Nothing much planned intially but then am glad I went for the FeiYue volunteer camp. Was indeed quite an experience handling those youths. Will also be heading to Bangkok in January (presents anyone?)

Jun 06: Will most prob take part in Project Angel(an overseas mission trip). Being able to witness the poverty in the country will make me better appreciate the life I have in Sing. (Also be involved in the National JCs economics quiz)

Dec 06: A one week seminar with MOE. Wish to climb Mt. Kinabalu and go snorkelling/ whitewater rafting

Jun 07: Hopefully back from SEP. Deadline to apply is less than 2 weeks time and I still do not know which country to go to. First choice is Europe cos I have been to the States B4. UK universities are limited while English speaking courses in other Unis in Europe are limited too. A 3 week attachment in schools in July.

Dec07:nothing planned yet.

Jun08: It's being a volunteer at Beijing 08 or Work/Travel USA. Guess the latter seems more likely.


Gosh! That seems a lot to accomplish, but then wat's above will serve as a guide so that I dun waste these golden years away ya. BAck to research for SEP universities, and also pray for results on 23rd Dec.

To Love and to be loved

To Love and to be loved

It's been a long time since i got emotionally attached to a girl. She is indeed special to me in many ways:

It's been a long time since someone can knock so much sense into me. She made me realise that I was living in my own comfort zone all this while, not daring to venture out to look for greener pasteurs. Always uncomfortable to provide a listening ear for fear that the problem will become my own, that it will become exemplified when I use my heart to listen and empathize. I have not gone through the extremeties of emotions which may have led to the large inertia I have to leave this comfort zone. I think I need to feel more with my heart, see more with my eyes and listen with my ears. Please do no hide or mitigate your feelings anymore.

It's been a long time since someone cooked for me. And I think it's the first time someone cooked specially for me. For a moment, I thought I was the most fortunate man on Earth.

To this special girl in my life: together we shall grow to become better persons through this relationship, shed our bad habits and be a blessing to the people around us, may the Lord be our guide. Thank you for stepping into my life and teaching me how to love again.

Midst of exams

Midst of Exams

A very rare post, came across this flash animation, it's quite cool.Do visit this link.My MSN nick now is -伟雄-惨遭考试的蹂躏，被杀得偏体鳞伤！Enough said, haven felt so lousy in a long long time.

End of Mid-term Break

End of Mid-term break

This mid-term break has indeed come timely, finally a chance to slow down the pace of things going on around me, the chance for me to re-evaluate the direction in which I am heading in this point in time, or simply the chance to breathe freely once again. Gone were the days in army that were carefree, just head to camp, hang out and talk crap with close buds, awaiting for 1730 hrs everyday seemed to be some sort of motivation everyday. It is indeed an irony that many of us, as an NSF grumble and complain about the lack of freedom we have then, and now reminiscing about the life we had in army Or perhaps I am the only one?

It's definitely crunch time for many of us in NUS, 4 mid-term tests and an essay of 1500 words due next week. However, despite the 'supposedly hectic' timetable I have drawn out for myself, I managed to squeeze time to catch two movies! Namely Eric Khoo's 'Be With Me' and Jackie Chan's 'The myth'.(Yes, i was at the premiere, all thanks to Eugene). I am not that good with movie reviews but shall just add my personal touch to it since you do not need to visit this site if you want to know what the movies are about.

'Be with me' is quite an arty-farty film I should say, if you have not already known, it's a local production rated M18. The only thing I heard prior to watching is that this movie is that there consist of 3 stories interwoven together and one of them depicts the love of 2 lesbians. That was probably one of the untold reasons why my KR OG(and yes, I went for the outing) decided to watch the show? This show had less than 40 dialogues between all the characters of the story added up. The director was effective in using different techniques from the characters' SMSing, a third person narrating typing away on the old fashioned type writer, to deliver the story. There were occasional yawns from the audience throughout the 1 hr 40 min show but strangely enough, no one from the group fell asleep. It was only after the show which we discussed about that some of them actually shed some light pertaining certain issues that were highlighted in the show. I will give it an overall rating of 6 stars out of 10? If you still do not understand what I am trying to say here, do visit this website


The typical Jackie Chan movie, with his signature showcase of dare-devil stunts and exciting fighting scenes, Jackie will play dual roles - one as 3rd century Qin Dynasty general and a modern archaeologist in "The Myth". The story line seemed pretty logical to me at first but as the story slowly unfolded, the last part was totally absurd as you see Jackie Chan and Korean star Kim Hee-sun performing anti-gravity flying stunts(as if they have qing gong or somthing)among numerous ancient Qin warriors floating in mid-air due to some ancient metorite stone in the vicinity. One thing I must mention is the sheer beauty of Kim Hee-sun. Am not a fan of Korean drama but guess she will be my idol of the month or something. Overall rating: 6.5 stars out of 10, I rememebered Jackie Chan's previous show "New Police Story" appealed to me more

Gosh, I spent about 40 mins typing this entry in the central library instead of trying to complete my essay and tutorials. Anyway, just for laughs, I have decided to upload one of my Taiwan photos below, have a great weekend ahead!


Help! Falling Rocks!

Mugging time

Mugging time

I realised there really isn't this bit of sports genes in me, acting and singing aint my fortre too. Sometimes I look up in the sky, wondering what I am good at?

It's just one of my crappy mood, once again, I will be alright, perhaps the question of self-worth will keep popping up once in a while. Thanks all for being there. It's time to mug soon...

Friday is my free day

I shall declare that Friday is my free day! Realised that my "Understanding the Universe" lecture is an utter waste of time, and this has been verified by Waty, my JC classmate and senior in NUS who has kindly offered to give me her notes for this module.

And, so this morning joined Meng, Vin and Gene for KTV @ Suntec City and goSh! Eugene managed to sing quite a number of mandarin songs and he sang pretty well too with his 'Unchained Melody' vocals. We are so gonna miss him when he goes to Imperial on 1st Oct. I feel he's the most steadfast fren among the group, always dependable, just a phonecall away. Always the provides the most logical advice among the six of us. That's goona leave only Nest, me, Meng and Vin in Singapore.

I went for tuition this afternoon at Wo Lui's house. I think I am getting a bit impatient with Jon, hm, to me sometimes he does not seem to pay attention to what i am saying. But from another perspective perhaps, what I am saying he may have heard it upteen times. He seems to have too much tuition outside excluding mine so pple have been nagging at him for the same reasons. He is improving, I can feel it, but then it;s not fast enough. Perhaps my teaching methods aint right, I rem my previous tuition kid's brother I was teaching, he dint seem to improve much too. But hey my sec4 kids did well for their prelims! from 36 pts to 72 pts over 100, thanks to their wonderful tutor!

Dinner was at Asia Pacific breweries. Thanks to Andrea's friend who won a lucky draw, a group of four of us, plus the whole big group of peeps from NTU hall 7. Met some familiar faces and Sam loy was one of them. There was free flow of food and of course beer which included Tiger, HeineKen, Erdinger, Barons etc. Played games like INdian poker, a pathetic game of pool which we lost and had to drink as a result. Pretty much uneventful but still a place with nice ambience, great beer?

Back to KR, and my block, prob to celebrate ourselves being the Champions of IBG, decide to have a drinking session so I just brought the vodka which i have brought form home up. I dun dare to drink much cos the beer earlier, but then the rest were drinking away with whiskey, Baileys and others unidentified. I was rather surprised when I realised some of my female seniors actually smoke. Well perhaps they are just social smokers, I rem previously I was also offered a cigarette over at Jensen's birthday party, glad I dint accept it. Just in awe to know so many of the people around me actually smoke.

Help! I got an 1500word history essay due in two weeks time, but guess wat, I am actually looking forward to doing it, though time consuming, i believe it will bring tremendous satisfaction. OK, not making sense already from all that alcohol, got my 2nd French lesson later in the afternoon. Au revoir.

Yeah, I know my posts have been sparse. Too many things have happened recently and often I thought i have something significant to update, something else has already happened. Thanks for the comments for my previous posts from anonymous, realli appreciate them, will definitely bear that in mind.

Carmen actually messaged me a Happy TEacher's day MMS, which includes one of the my pictures playing the suona in sec 4? Well, it goes something like this: "ohmygod, u lool fat, thanks for all the guidanceand help u've given me.." oh Well, i was not born thin, perhaps the PE and RT training back in Vj helped. Will need to maintain a certain level of fitness for IPPT, which brings me to the point that i ran for road race for KR today. It wasnt a superb run, the central library slope nearly killed me, but then my block won overall champions anyway. One of the guys clocked 7 mins * sec for 2.2km, breaking the KR record. Next was volleyball training for the match today which we won and which i played less than 30 mins, well they had better seniors around to play. But dint realli had the experience to play in a competitive Vball match b4 and the atmosphere was indeed tense.

For hall life, currently has taken part in Frisbee, Vball, road race. Colin/ Yuwei actually commented that they saw me around twice in two weeks which probably qualifies me as a phantom of KR. But oh well, guess that does not bother me anymore. Came to terms that I will only do things that I enjoy doing in hall,wont do dumb/ useless things just to get the points required to stay in hall next yr. Dint make the cut for hall acapella, wont dare to say I have the sports genes to make it for inter hall games next sem, prob will have to join some committees to stay on, shall see how? Besides hall stuff, currently i am a member of the NUSSU Bizcom where we organise, market and get sponsors for NUSSU events. Good chance for me to learn something new like marketing which i dun realli have the chance of doing in NUS. Weining also requested that I be part of the committee for the 2006 inter JC economics quiz, which automatically qualifies me as a Econs Soc member. Yah, I know that Ishould be more involved in hall rather then outside activitiis, but then seems like the projects that KR is doing now more or less involve in KR bash and the hall production.

Enough of coms, I sometimes think to myself that I shud realli try to pick up a sport or smth, to keep fit and learn a new skill. Also considering some volunteering organisations like NVAC or the rotaracts who be heading to Cambodia next year. I believe going on such mission trips will shed a different light on me, making me appreciate the many things i have taken for granted. Tennis, karate or VBall( For IHG) are prob games that I might consider?

Some good news:MOE increased my scholarship allowance according to PSC guidelines! Hm, came at a right time , we'll get more subsidy and Laptop allowance. Hm, and finally announcing that i can use the extra money to pay for my french classes, which is supposedly to start this Sat! Kinda excited and hopefully when i Go for exchange: UK ( Imperial College) or University of California Berkeley, then my French will be put to good use if I were to tour Europe two yrs later.

Work has been piling up recently, Being a chem majorAm still coping ok with my chem modules though lab work absolutely aint my cup of tea, being a chem major but then my Linear Algebra is really killing me, someone even teared during the tutorial when she dint understand a thing. I thought I was in the same plight as her.

Still trying to strike the balance betw my family, social life and hall life. This equilibrium, if not kept in check, will prob bring many regrets and remorses in the future.It really is high time to consider what I realli want from my 4 yrs of undergrad studies here in NUS( ranked 18th in the world)(yeah right?!)
Hope everyone is doing well now, those busy with Exams, coping in hall life, struggling in army, aint coping well studies, remember, i am just a phone call away.