Paved with good intentions

The Singaporean Plan

Thanks Alex who sent me this link some time back. It did strike a chord in my heart. Thanks Vijay who lent me the book "Tuesdays with Morrie" though it's still with me after 1.5 yrs. You guys did make a difference and prob will help in my decision whether to switch my major.

NYC: The city that pulsates with the beat! Heard many things about New York from people, perhaps I should really spend some time there to soak in the culture?

To all fellow MOE scholars: This article is a good read, remember why we wanted to be teachers in the first place?

Read this article by Colin Goh and Joycelin Wu: Paved with good intentions)

Random Thoughts II

Random Thoughts II

It's time I plan for my hols! Nothing seems concrete yet. HK trip with colin? Bangkok trip with Weiming and gang?

Just read Xiaxue's blog (yes, i do read her blog sometimes), and going on a cruise seems fun too, I haven been on Virgo though.

All these cant be financed without money and the only 'legal' job that i can do cos of the bond seems to be relief teaching. It's not that I dun enjoy it but guess it's just being me again wanting to try something different and challenging for myself sincE I will end up teaching 4 years later anyway. AnY jobs to offer?

I did not apply to KR for my next year's accomodation. Got accepted into Kuok. A small part of me wants to stay in KR, it's definitely different being a senior compared to a freshie in year 1, have spent these few days cooping up in my room, maybe I should have given myself another chance to interact with people. I do treasure the occasional talks with Zhan Rui and Glen. Guess transferring to another block is not an option for me.

I was also contemplating switching my majors. i seriously do not care how this bromine molecule will add to alkene, or whether that chlorine attack the alkyl halides from backside or forward. I tried to convince myself to liking the subj, but to no avail, seriously it does not affect me in any bit whether phenol is more acidic than alphatic alcohols. I dun foresee myself working in the lab, all i wanted is that I can become a teacher to relate to my students and to make a difference in their lives. I suddenly realised that being a chem/maths teacher in the future may not serve that purpose. I need to have passion in what I teach, and i DUn really find it the science subjs thaT i am doing. Spoke to a senior in hall and Vijay about it, there's no guarantee that I will enjoy geography. Doing an exposure module GE1101 is not a fair gauge of my interest and ability in the subject. Dint do Geo @ A levels, changing to a new faculty and having to fulfil its requirements and getting MOE's permission to switch my majors are all the things that I will need to go through. SEP plans are to be postponed too i guess. By waiting one more sem to ascertain whether I like geo will be bit too late and I dun wanna spend an extra semester in NUS.

Exploring the option of changing my second teachign subj to Geography like what selina did. Perhaps thats the way to go, it will mean taking disgusting linear algebra for nothing, or perhaps its becos of that that I met her. I need to make up my mind soon, in the mean time its time to head back to Organic Chemistry. "Still trying to deceive myself that organic chem rox!"

Random Thoughts

Random Thoughts

It's been a tiring week. We have realised that there are fundamental differences between us, its really up to to both of us to iron out the differences and to compromise.

I am weary and tired to hear those empty promises, to the extent that I do not even trust what you say sometimes. I may be anal about things u might say, but isn't trust one of the basic must-haves in a relationshIp? I am sick of having any expectations from ya just to be disapointed in time to come.

I do break my promises i made to myself, but i am certain these did not hurt anyone around me. By not embarking on Project Angel, my excuse is not about the long period of time I gonna spend in Cambodia, it's not about my parents disallowing me to go on such a mission, but it's bout a promise I made to a friend, to be the Logistics IC for an event in NUS. This may not be important to you at all, perhaps helping to build a school for the children in Cambodia is more rewarding than to organise some quiz in NUS, but I am just keeping my word.

Enough said, I am willing to give this another chance, I am aware of my flaws and am willing to work on it. It all depends on ya, if u still insist that I cant give u the personal space and freedom that you need, I shall respect your decision. It might just be better for both of us, like wat you say.